Monday, March 15th
I’ve been looking at the amount of time I actually sit down to paint and design versus all the “other” stuff I have to do to keep my business afloat, and also…. the time that I waste. Ugh!
I recognize that I need to set time aside EVERYDAY to paint… Even if its just an hour, but chances are, once I sit down, I’ll just keep painting… But maybe not. This weekend I did paint, but I feel like I wasn’t painting or designing well. And one thing I realized in this is…. I have unrealistic expectations of myself! (again) Rolling eyes.
I put so much pressure on myself when I sit down to design that it has to be GOOD, that I don’t allow myself the time to just paint… and see where it takes me! I knew I did this, but I had no idea the affect this has on my painting/designing…. When I go here, I am not at my best! So one thing I changed over the weekend is to just paint…. So what if the new design isn’t coming out well, not every piece I do is going to be a masterpiece! And I so want to continue to enjoy my creativity, painting, writing… so beating on myself about when I’m not at my best only serves to stiffle my creativity…. and that’s not a good thing.
So, I had two pieces going this weekend, and as I stand up and walk away from one and come back to the other one… I’m much happier and much less critical of self.
Another thing I am aware of, is its time for me to take on some challenges… to learn some new things… I spend so much time teaching others, and I need to give myself the joy of learning! After all, there is so much to learn, and I really do feel alive when I am learning…. So, I’m going to look around for some art classes for myself!