We’ve all been targeted by some unhealthy vindictive person for little if no real reason other than the fact that they need someone to beat on. When this happened to be I realized, which I guess I always knew anyway, but it reiterated to me that evil does in fact, exist.
The best thing we can do is walk away, though our egos, pride want to strike back. At least mine does. I heard something twenty years ago that has stayed with me “The best revenge is no revenge”…to live a good life not missing a beat. It’s hard sometimes to take the high road but I have learned that I will never “win” by giving up my peace of mind and I could never “win” at the level that these people exist. It isn’t in me, and for that I am truly grateful. To understand such hatred and vial actions is to be like that, or on the other end of their tight rope.
For someone to think that they are almighty powerful and important, ignoring them, not even looking at them, acknowledging their existence should be enough. How dare you or I ignore this person? This person in which evil resides?
I guess I’m writing this because I am reminding myself of my ego, my pride. It hurts when someone tells lies about you, and particularly degrading ones. I have learned however, that it always comes full circle. Perhaps not in the time lot we want or think it should, but eventually the tracks of karma will be drawn over their face.
Recently the news with the capital punishment case where there was a malfunction caused a 45 minute “delay” for the bastard to die, and many said it wasn’t right. I’m not going there but I will say that I don’t believe the answer is more suffering. I’m not qualified to judge another (though I do). My reply to others regarding this was this: Was it done on purpose? Did we (humans) who were responsible for taking the appropriate actions to end this mans life, did they take justice into their own hands? The answer is No. Not that I’ve heard anyway. My fervent belief is that this was karmic justice. God help me but in many ways I found this reassuring that the evil that preys around us will meet with the good, God will prevail. How hard it is to remember that when under fire, however.
To harbor or hold resentment only hurts ourselves. It keeps us from experiencing the good in life while stuck in our anger. I forgive for me, not for any other. I am not condoning another’s action, I am simply forgiving to set myself free from the anger, the crap that potentially has the power to consume me. I don’t have to speak to that person again, I don’t have to even let them know I have forgiven, again, I forgive for me.
For the past 30 years of my life I have prayed for those who have harmed me. I learned this in a 12 step program and reading every spiritual self help book I could get my hands on. When I suggest to someone that they pray for those who have mistreated or harmed them, most look at me like I have three heads. When I do this it reminds me that while I bolster an obvious opinion about this person and their wrongs, but it is not productive, healthy nor is it up to me to “pay them back”. By praying for them it helps remind me of a higher power, and gets me to the forgiveness stage faster. I pray for them because it helps ME! The judgment and resentment harbored potentially have the same, if not more destruction, sabotaging our own lives. Screw them! Pray for them and let it go. Just like this murderer whom had the misfortune of taking 45 very long minutes to die… how can one not believe in karma? Thus, the evil that comes around will eventually go around, in fact, it starts immediately if we take the high road, if we not offer this person one second of our lives. The best revenge is no revenge but to live a good life!
I want to feel peaceful, serene. I want to be an instrument of peace, not of evil. Karma exists and I needn’t take action. If I do it’s like taking the poison I want to give someone else, myself. I’m only harming myself.
Evil does exist. Karma does too! If we are embarking on resentment, dig two graves!