Shortly we, on the East Coast, will ring in 2014. 2013 has been a good year for me. Every year brings an assortment of experiences, some that we deem good, some that we deem bad. One commonality with both is that we have the opportunity to learn, to grow. Some of the most difficult times of my life have brought much character growth. Sometimes it’s hard to believe that we are never given more than we can handle, but we are continually given the opportunity to help others, thus becoming part of their healing, their coping. I hope I will not pass on an opportunity to be compassionate with another, to offer a hand when one is needed, to bring a smile to not only my family and friends, but a stranger.
I have pondered at times, when loss, when difficulties have knocked on my door and tomorrow seemed impossible to hope for, let alone the next hour, that perhaps we are given our pain to teach another, to help another, after all, isn’t that what life is all about? Is there any better feeling than knowing you have somehow helped another in need? And better yet, to keep these things between yourself and God?
It isn’t about the possessions (okay, brushes, paint & canvas can be exempt here! ♥) but the love we bring to one another. Priceless are the moments in time that we shall never forget, that fill our palette with the most beautiful colors, softening the gray. The gift of youth, the innocence, the beauty, the joy….their little antics, and those of our furry children who bring to us unconditional love. Wow. Unconditional love.
2013 came with a gift for me to take better care of myself, to be kinder to myself. I hope 2014 brings this to all of us.
I have no New Years Resolutions, I am on a constant journey of growth, of change. I aspire to become the best person I can possibly be. I’m very aware that this does not happen purely through joy, but through the difficult treks of life. I aspire to not be so judgmental of others, including myself, but offer a tender smile and quiet moment to find patience, understanding. To treat others the way I want to be treated, and to treat myself the way I do those I love.
Bringing in a New Year typically brings some anxiety with it for me. The uncertainties, the unknowns, and what IS known. But I remind myself that all we have, all any of us have is this moment right now. Overrated are tomorrows plans when today, in its shine or unpolished existence, is a wonderful gift. On the rare occasion I listen to my phone messages, I sometimes will not delete those from loved ones, remembering too well past ones long gone, in which I would love the opportunity to hear once more. I remind myself, this is just hyper vigilance, for all I really need to do is go to a quiet loving place, and the voices, eyes and smiles of those I long for are right there. Even if my heart is breaking, I can put my hand over my heart and know, there within they reside
Wishing you all, love, peace and a very happy, healthy, human New Year! ♥♥♥
Lord, make me a channel of thy peace!
That where there is hatred, I may bring love
That where there is wrong, I may bring the spirit of forgiveness
That where there is discord, I may bring harmony
That where there is error, I may bring truth
That where there is doubt, I may bring faith
That where there is despair, I may bring hope
That where there are shadows, I may bring light
That where there is sadness, I may bring joy.
Lord, grant that I may seek rather
To comfort than to be comforted
To understand, than to be understood.
To love, than to be loved.
It is by self-forgetting that one finds.
It is by forgiving that one is forgiven.
It is by dying that one awakens to Eternal Life.