I can’t keep up with the crap that’s going on in the world. Not and live a meaningful, focused, purposeful life. Two minutes into reading the news, or the newest trend that is circling Facebook, I want to run away and hide.
I don’t think as humans, and I am one of them, we are designed to deal with the harshness that fills this world right now. Yes, there are still beautiful amazing things to focus on, but there is so much ugliness that me, myself and I have to extricate myself from. Whether you can handle it, that’s not up for me to decide, but for me personally, I can only stand small increments of crap, otherwise I get swallowed up in it.
This is not to say that I do not have an opinion, most of my readers know the world of crap I got myself in for speaking my voice and opinion in the last election. What an election to open my mouth! My point? I now choose my battles, and wisely.
There is so much going on in this world that strips me of peace, of center. I’m not one to blame “God”, though I have been extremely ticked off at him in past. I am petrified of human trafficking, drugs, war, just to name three. Now peruse your favorite news channel and see how many other dreadful, crazy things are going on.
How do we participate, and for each of us, have a voice, and realize we aren’t always going to agree with the opinion of others, and THAT”S OKAY! Perhaps listening or reading without judgement, we can learn something about another person, or situation that we may have not looked at, or realized. But that takes an open mind to be willing to look beyond belligerence. And I’m here to tell you, I too can be belligerent. I have been. But it’s not a place I choose to visit daily, or even weekly. For me it usually shows up when my defenses have failed to acknowledge harm coming from places I didn’t expect. This means what? It’s simple. That I need to take care of myself, my own mental and physical state, financial. That doesn’t mean I become oblivious to what is going on around me, but it does mean I secure myself, FIRST, it’s called self preservation! And when that is in place, and I am able to help another, I will. I will.
So today I’m choosing to stay in my own little world, which is full of color, texture, music, love, and light. I am choosing not to participate outside of this world today, because I have somethings I need to take care of, and I am. But I will and have offered a prayer for all my family, friends, and the world in its entirety. So much going on right now, natural disasters and more. My prayer will be my participation and help to others for this day.
I don’t believe we are designed to handle the enormous hatred and judgement that has been tossed around MOMENT BY MOMENT, and I’m not talking about just one subject. I’m talking about ALL. I’ve had enough to last me a lifetime, and I’m learning to not become ignorant to what is happening, but become purposeful where I can, and right now, there is nothing I can do for all that surrounds us, but pray.
I’m not suggesting you change what you are doing, unless you, too, feel overwhelmed and consumed by the ugliness that situates beside of you. I don’t know whats best for you, or anyone else, so I just want to nod at you, blow you a kiss, and wish you a good day, filled with whatever you want it to be. Those who are struggling, and there are many friends right now who are in crises, I wish you the best, and I’m saying a prayer that you will be comforted, that you will be given the strength you need to get through this day. I offer this blog to give those like minded thoughts a gentle hug and acknowledgement that, yeah, I too am overwhelmed, so today I’m doing what I can for myself, first. Wishing you a joy filled day with healthy boundaries and decisions made with a healthy, happy heart. To you!!!