I just spent 10 days on the West Coast, Southern California. The weather was awesome, the trip was great, and I’m hung over from jet lag! But it was all worth it.
Today I slept in, went for a ride with a good friend, and we chatted and laughed, and chatted and laughed. Somewhere in between we were also very honest. Not the easiest thing to do, but always a good thing.
It’s back to work for me now. Plans and things I’ve worked for, bills to be paid, responsibilities to manage, it can be a slap of reality. Also, oneness, being alone. I haven’t felt Loneliness in a long time, and I had hoped I never would again. But I do.I do, and I’ll live. And as I step back into my world, into my studio, and plans, I know I will once again be grounded, and all will be solid again. “Fatigue makes cowards out of all of us!”. I am tired.
No matter where you go in life, your mind, your conscience follows you. You can ignore it if you want, you can cast it aside, obliterate it with food, or whatever other coping mechanism you use that keeps you standing, or trying to stand. In the end, however, reality is there, and that’s okay. It really is. It means accepting it, even if you don’t like it. I know personally that acceptance means peace, and I choose peace over anything else in my life. Mostly because I’ve lived a long time without it.
In the end I will be true to myself, and I will find my grind, and all that happened will be placed in proper perspective, in a special place that memories go, memories that touch your heart, your soul.
Wishing you love, peace, and a break from reality! And wishing you a reality that you love, and work hard for. Love to you and yours… Wishing me? Sleep, and peace with oneness.