With the hustle and bustle of Christmas Open House(s) and customs behind me, I sat quietly on my couch tonight watching Frasier, making myself a pair of mittens.
I am grateful for the success I have had the past month, priority being happy customers. I delivered my last painting tonight, 2′ x 3′ daisies. She was overtly blissful with her purchase, and the custom quote she wanted put on it. I am smiling. It’s really nice when others truly appreciate my art.
Yesterday my mom and I packed up what was left of mittens, and threw in a few other things, which will be given to underprivileged. It’s my part of trying to make someone’s Christmas a bit better.
This has been a difficult year for me, but the holiday season has been delightful. I seem to have risen up and beyond the ugly depression that sticks it’s talons into me, with the weight of the world. It is nice to feel good. It is nice to be peaceful, serene. I am truly grateful.
As Christmas approaches (and my birthday just past), I always start reflecting on the year, and defining what it is I hope to achieve in the upcoming year. This year has taught me much. I don’t wish to repeat the difficult times, but what I do want to withhold, to keep, is the peace that I am feeling.
The older I get, the less I care about what someone thinks of me. I have learned to only put forward what I feel I can, and I am choosing to spend my time wiser. I haven’t the energy for another’s drama, that is, “luxury” drama. Life dishes out enough hardship. I will be there for those I love, and I will continue to pray for those in need.
I am particularly fortunate to have, still with me, both parents, and the two siblings remaining. I am particularly fortunate to be writing this cancer free. I know what it is like to make the best of difficult holidays, and I’m largely grateful that this one, for me, is quiet, without hardship. I know that is not true for everyone. So grateful to be spared thus far, of heartache.
I was told that Pope Francis declared “This is NOT a Merry Christmas”, speaking of course to the ills and state of the world. But I’ve learned that in spite of all the deplorable things that are happening, it is up to me to find peace, happiness in my little corner of the world. And this year, my little corner of the world comes with new sheets and pillows. Sounds simple? Indeed, it is. And as I work to simplify my life, ridding myself of excess “things” I don’t need, letting go of pain of yesterday, I am finding myself in a much happier place. It really is about the little things.
My life today is filled with little things. I am grateful.