I just got up and walked away from a painting I’m working on. If truth be known I wish I had done this 10 minutes ago because I despise what I did to it. Poor Santa! I believe it takes two to paint, and one person to stay “STOP!” I have been using brighter colors than usual, and I’m excited about that, I think it is tell tale that I am seeing things differently than I did a few months ago, a couple few years ago.
I love Spotify. When I’m in my car and hear a song I like, I ask Siri to take a note which lists the songs. When I get home, turn on the computer I download these new songs. I have playlists for cleaning, workout, painting, for each of my siblings, and people who have departed. Music is so powerful. It carries me through the darkness and then gives me a jolt, boost of energy when a song comes on that reflects positive memories. My best friend went through an ugly divorce and could not listen to music for a couple of years. I remember thinking to myself, if I did not have music, NEW music at that, I would probably not move. But I know there was a time in my life when I couldn’t listen to music. That’s all I want to say about that dark time.
Tom Petty is currently “running down a dream” as I type this. I hope he dreams that this Santa I’m working on will look better in the morning light! Music, Music, Music! When you listen to music, do you sing like a rock star? Find yourself holding a tube of paint as a mic? I am not saying I do, just wondering about you! 🙂
This week is not going to be without stress, I’m afraid. Dr.’s appointments, test results that could change a life drastically. I have worked hard to stay busy and try to keep my emotions in check. But it doesn’t take much for fear to jump in, and I find myself in the middle of a panic attack. Why does life have to be so hard? Recalling an earlier conversation I had with myself (Hey, I’m pretty good conversationalist), in which I reminded myself it was just a few days ago that I questioned “my shining hours” were actually some of the hardest of my life. Now isn’t that something? I was hot and didn’t even know it? Haha!
If you think of it Tuesday morning, Wednesday afternoon, drop a prayer or send good thoughts my way. I’d appreciate it! And I hope you have a lovely Monday! Is there such a thing???