Whether my mood has been affected by the gloomy weather we’re having or this is depression trying to lay it’s lead blanket on me, my attitude and thoughts are aligned with the weather. I’m doing my best to ward off this feeling of defeat.
I needed to replace my Aveeda body lotion, so when I was at Walmart I did so, only after grumbling that the price was now over $1 more. My nighttime ritual is to plaster my body with lotion just before I crawl into bed. Excited that Aveeda had changed the cover from a pump to a squirt, I proceeded to rub it in. What the heck did they do, change the formula too? The consistency was totally different. I had taken Benadryl and quickly fell to sleep. This morning I woke up with my face stuck to the pillow case and my body to the sheets. What the heck? Well, I had purchased BODY WASH. My morning shower required no further soap! There were suds everywhere, including bubbles in the air! This incident is worse than the bleach in the refrigerator and the milk on the floor in the bathroom from a few weeks ago. Sometimes the things I do scare me!
My work consists of several venues. I design in decorative painting industry, needlecraft industry and recently started in beading. I try to go with the flow of creativity, though sometimes deadlines dictate my work schedule and medium. The past few days I have felt a shift coming. This mornings actions confirmed this when I found myself putting away the beads even before I was reminded of a magazine deadline. It’s time to reacquaint myself with my paintbrushes. I’m looking forward to this but of course cleaning off my paint table will be a chore in itself. May the force be with me!
It’s nice to have a variety of mediums to work with. I find that I am gentler on myself, not beating myself up if my skills in one area seem to travel South. For instance, when I find myself, not purposely, having brushes fly out of my hands, it’s time to move to something else. When the yarn gets bunched and knotted and I’ve spent an hour untangling it, it’s time to move to something else. After I’ve lost 3 needles and found myself bleeding from pokes, it’s time to throw the broach I’m working on across the room! Okay, I didn’t, but I thought about it.
I’m recalling a time when Cabbage Patch dolls were the in thing. Acquiring them for Christmas was next to impossible. A friend of mine asked me if I’d make one for her great niece. Okay, I can do that, as they sold the patterns and the cabbage patch doll heads at the local textile mill. The doll was coming along nicely. It was time to put the head on. I had a full strength needle that was about 4″ long and was using this to sew the head on the doll. This meant working it through the plastic. I had stabbed myself so many times with the needle that my anger got the best of me and I threw it across the room against a wall. Coincidently my then boyfriend and his friend walked in just as the doll slammed against the wall and fell to the floor. He picks it up, brushes her off and said “I guess we’re not ready for kids yet?”
My mom was once a seamstress, making prom and wedding gowns for pay. She would sew on our kitchen table which was in front of a sliding glass door to our back yard. One day, while working with chiffon, our Black Lab, Cinder Poo (Pooey) saw something out back, he plowed through the area she was working right through the screen, taking along with it the sewing machine and gown. That day my siblings and I stayed scarce!
Sometimes I remind myself when I’m having a hard day, or something happens, like yesterday that makes me feel defeated, that one day I will be able to look back at it and laugh, or impress myself with the strength I had to get through it. Don’t you find this to be true? I also find that as the course of life naturally happens, the gift of perspective comes to play. Most of the stuff I used to fret about I wouldn’t today. Unimportant!
Hope you have a great weekend! Hope the sun comes out here, and I hope that my smile returns to my face!
Bob Dylan Unplugged….in the bose…. yup….This will surely turn me around!