My friend Patty summed it up in one sentence “You are a flake”…. there was no harmful intent, we were discussing doing business together and the challenges that we had. Indeed! I am a flake, but I’m not a fake! 🙂
My studio is piled high with papers, supplies, surfaces. Brushes are scattered all over my painting desk and I still have a couple bags of supplies, samples that I have yet to unpack from last week. OYYYYY
I love my small abode. Only five rooms, in need of new windows, a paint job, and a lot of finishing inside, I am snuggling in this week, resting my tired body, spending time with my animals.
I told my therapist today “I think I am hardening”. She said “No, Donna, I don’t think so. I think you are learning to discriminate, you are learning self preservation, that is all”. Okay, I’ll take it! I would rather believe hers than mine, though honestly, I think there is truth in both statements.
When I turned 40 I got very lippy. My then fiancée said to me “I’m not sure if I want to be around when you turn 50!” Well, he wasn’t, and 50 was a good birthday for me. What 50 brought me was the initial being lippy times 5, and also an attitude of not caring what others thought of me. Well, those who were not close to me anyway. Freeing, indeed.
My financial struggles continue, but I have learned that all I can do my best, and worry will not alter the reality, only my health. Robbing from Peter to pay Paul, but hey, add in Mary at the end and you have a wonderful singing group! 🙂 I have been thinking about government employees, and the shutdown. Fire all of frigan congress, I say! I hope that those out of work will return soon, and those who have yet to be paid… get paid soon. What a bunch of crap. What about cutting all CONGRESS pay? benefits? So many I know are in the “I’d gladly pay you Tuesday for a hamburger today” way of life, living week to week, and some weakly. I sure hope things get better for all of us.
So there you have it, my scattered and mundane thoughts on this “Prince Spaghetti Day”. Sure hope you are having a good day and smiling. Thank God, today I am smiling. Yes, it is a choice, but its much easier when things around you are going smoothly, status quo, and I am not a chaotic mess (like my studio). Hugz!