Migraines can be frightening. When I was diagnosed with “cluster migraines” 4 years ago, I was put on topomax. I was on that for two years, and took myself off after reading about the lethal combination it can be and have with other medications. My migraines were no longer clustered (I am whispering that)…I have been having less migraines I believe because of some of the other medications I’m on. When I do get them, they all vary in intensity and complexity. Early this morning I had a humdinger which was caused by my LACK of taking my medicines. My fault. I ran out of prozac, called it in and forgot to pick it up. Worse yet? I have felt myself slipping backwards, I wasn’t sure why. It was something I was going to talk to my therapist , primary care provider, and oncologist this week, all of which I blew off (tell tale sign there). Sometimes my hands and feet go numb, I vomit, get double vision…it is nasty and I find myself not as scared of dying as I am living like that!
For a couple years I’ve been having problems with my hands. If I use them above my heart they go numb. Now it seems they are going numb regardless. It wakes me up at night, It causes problems with my holding things. I did some sewing this week and found it impossible to pick up a common pin, so as suggested by a friend who has similar problems, I bought some with big balls on the end. Today my hands, mostly my fingers, have been numb all day. I have also felt like crap all day, so I haven’t accomplished anything. I think it is neuropathy… According to Dr Donna, that is. Whatever it is, it’s a pain in my hands!
I am feeling better now, as a friend went and got my meds for me, so its back in my system, though the tips of my fingers are still numb. I am going to attempt to paint… bet you are hoping it isn’t a custom piece I’m doing for you, huh? grins…. Aging and the physical problems that come with it aren’t fun. Not at all. Wouldn’t it be nice if as we aged, the “gift of life” would include good health, not only knowledge?
I dislike days that I accomplish little or nothing, that’s because I tend to base my self worth on what I accomplish. Okay…. now add to it that I consider myself lazy! Geez! When I share that thought with anyone close to me they roll their eyes and say “you are far from lazy”. Could it possibly be I have a distorted view of myself? Say it isnt so!!!!!!!
On a sad note, a fellow high school classmate and facebook friend LouAnn Bourassa died unexpectedly. Rest in peace LouAnn.